I wonder how, I wonder why...
We had Cell Group Meeting yesterday at my place. Somehow, I was just so tired after the whole session. Yesterday meeting wasn't considered a success because I felt that my performance was bad. The preaching was bad. I felt something lacking in me. Alamak, the P&W was horrible. No leading at all! What's wrong with me? My colleague told me that I am quite not myself recently, I seems blur and lost, kept doing wrong things. Aiyo, I felt something wrong wif me also. But what is it??? haha.
But well, thanks for all cell members who came, probably you guys din receive the best preaching or P&W but I believed you guys enjoyed the fellowship ya? haha. Please give me some more time to better myself. Haiz... But I would like to take this opportunity to thank Jordan and Sylvia, you guys did your part in practicing, its my part which spoils the whole thing. I am sorry.
After all that I have experienced, I just wanna say, Quiet Time is very important in one Christian's life. To be honest, my Quiet Time is very weak since I am a Christian. I can be discipline for a week, but failed the other. You must be thinking, wah leader le, if you dont even have your daily QT yourself, how can you convince others to do it? This is what I always struggle. But, it is because I know how Satan will destroy us during the time where we do not keep up with our QT, that's why I emphasize on you guys. I am discipling and reminding myself in the process too. (which I finds it really hard.) I just felt that the discpline of having QT should be enforced, the first day you are salvaged.
The reason, why I lost focus, blur, done wrong things, is due to lack of QT and prayers. Which caused bad experience that I have to swallow. I do not want you guys to go through what I did, because some may fail in the process. I am not trying to be a Saint or what. QT IS IMPORTANT. This the message I wanna get across.
Ok, I shall end here. WIll be going for my driving lesson after work today. I pray that I will stay focus on the road, ppl, and cars. No accidents plssssssssssssssss.. hahah. Cya.
Humbly humble,
Freda