Live life with no regrets.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Enjoying Life with YOU is all I ask for...

Yeah, its wednesday!!! I am taking half day leave today. Heard from my HR that i am entitled to 1.5 days of leave. yeah. no need to deduct my monthly pay, thats great. There are many things to do today. haha. Running errands I meant. Firstly, I got to collect guitar that was left in the silver cab on saturday night. It was long story, Jordan told me to bring it back so that I can pass it to Jason. So, in order to be a kind person, I obliged and carried it back. However after dinner, on the way home with Gui Ming, PAuline and Andrea on saturday night, we left the guitar in the car boot, despite having reminders from Gui Ming to ask me to rememeber to take it back. haiz. So ironic rite. Luckily, Pauline made a call to silver cab to report lost. And the headquarter made a broadcast to all the other cabbies on this reported case. Thank God that the nice cabby is kind enough to return the guitar to the headquarters. So, what I have to do now, is to collect it from REDHILL! Thats super far. haiz.

Next, I will go and collect my Samsung HP, Z370. Regina anf Gui Ming went down yesterday to collect and they said, We are to exchange 1 for 1. But initially, they called Pastor, and told them that they will only change the motherboard, and we are not eligible for 1 for 1 exchange. So common sense tells me that there is no need to bring the whole box there. Thus, Regina and Gui Ming made a wasted trip there. Today, I am going down with my full box of charger, ear piece etc. and if they still say, I cannot collect, Surely I will write a report to ST Forum. What a lousy service they offer. Causing me so much trouble. haix.

However, I would like to take this opportunity to thanks all those who had help me in the case of my Samsung Hp in a way or another. They are Titus, Pastor, Regina, and Gui Ming. Thanks alot. SOrry to cause you trouble too.haha.

Next, I will meet my auntie first before selling off my HP. Hope it can earm me some money. I have already lost hope in Samsung and gain trust in Sony Ericsson. hahah. However they are more to say tonight. See u guys. I am logging off for my half day leave. Take care... :)

Freda

Monday, August 27, 2007

Enjoying Life with YOU is all I ask for...

Its another Monday. haha. I wore pink to counter act monday blue. haha. Rubbish la. Ignore me. I am quite happy today actually. Because after work, I will be rushing home to see my mum. haha. You must be wondering whats so happy to see my mum. haah. Today is actually Chinese Ghost Festival, the 15th day. Most buddhists will pray and offer lots of food such canned food, chicken, duck, kuehs and tidbits. So I am rushing home to eat the food actually. haha. But of cos. I hope that one day my parents wont be offering anything on Ghost Festivals. ( Which means, praying that they will convert to Christians one day, well, I believe that day will come soon. ) haha. You can see it, you can have it!!!

But well, I received a call from my 5th auntie, saying that my eldest auntie contracted leukaemia ( means blood cancer ). So I will be meeting my auntie to visit her instead of going to eat my kuehs at home. Heard that only her siblings are allowed to donate their bone marrow to her. But the sad thing is that, her silbings are not very healthy. Some have high blood pressure, some have low blood. So, they were thinking whether nephews and nieces can donate. If yes, probably I need to go for a check up to see if my bone marrow matches her's. Well, I am glad to donate if my matches. However, Let's pray for her and see how things goes. haha.

At the mean time, you guys, please take care of yourself. Life is precious and there are lots of things left undone. So, please eat healthily. Less salt, less sugar. haha. I am talking to myself too. hahaa.

A note to all Y02 Cell Members,

Cell Outing is postponed to Thursday, 30/08/07, instead of Tues. Due to the majority can make it on thursday. This changes only applys to this cell outing. Please dun mistaken. And, we will be heading to Chomp Chomp for dinner and proceed to ICE CUBE cafe for drinks and ice creams. YEAH!!! haha. Let's Fellowship. haha. We will be meeting at AMK Hub bus interchange at 6.45pm at the Bus 136 stand. Please make your way there and wait for the rest. hehe. Do invite your frens too so that we can multiply our no. of cell members in our cell. 45 new memebers by ENDOF THIS YEAR!!
WE can do it by GOD's GRACE!!!!!!!! YEAH. :)

Your leader,

Freda

Friday, August 24, 2007

Enjoying Life with YOU is all I ask for...

A New Mindset

The prayer meeting last thursday was powerful. God's presence was there so strongly. As a Christian for almost 6 years, I do not know how to tell others that it alwasy so nice to be a Christian. Because Christian, have an 24 hr God that is always beside us. No matter what kind of circumstances you are in, God still never leave you. Though in bad times, it seems that you are alone, because the challenges you faced is too big for you and you thought that God has already left you. But the fact is that, He never leave you. Some challenges are there to mould you in you character or to make you a better person. We always learn much after we fall badly. Agree?

1 Cor 10:13

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."

This is what the Lord promise. Hope it does encourage and motivates you. At least it does for me. hahaah. Just want you guys to know, that God will not put you in test in which you cannot bear. And always remember the house of God is always with you!!!

Members of Y02, you are blessed to have me as your leader!!! haha. Bhb.. hehe. You guys can do anything by God's power!! Amen? Cya again...

Your leader,
Freda

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Enjoying Life with YOU is all I ask for...

Next Target!

Hi all, well, have you ever realise the time that I blogged is always during office hours? haha, the reason is because. My jobscope is actually very easy. I mean not that its eay, but because I am clever. haha. no la. I mean the pace is is quite slow. Slow to me. Most of the time I complete my job very fast and then I am left with much time to linger around. Imagine, I have so much time that I even blog. You can feel the boredness? haha. Well, I cant stop praising that the people are very good to me. Sometimes the "uncles" here will drive us out for lunch. All the way to Holland V from Paya lebar you know. ahaha. And as you know. I love food. haha.

I like this place, but however, I have no intention to stay here for long. Because, I am looking for something that is meaningful. Admin job is just too dead for me. Its not something that I am looking for actually. Initially I study Business is to secure myself with something and a backup in case I failed in pursuing what I want. But well, since I am young, I wanna take an opportunity to venture out and to better myself.

For the past weeks, I have been pondering on being a Montessori pre-school Teacher ever since Pastor spoke to me regarding this idea. I gave it a thought and really find interest in being one. Though people may say that I am not suitable, but I am willing to give it a try and also a time to correct my character and attitudes. I always tell the people around me that I hated children who cries. So, how could I be one?? I believe this is a time where I will go through life differently, and to understand children lives better. Most importantly, to change my mindset that children are nuisance. haha. I even went to check diploma in Montessori Teachings. And, I have decided to attend the course in October. haa. I will asked pastor for his opinions. haha. Do pray for me. Who knows I will looking after your children in future. haha.

Will update again. Cya.....

your friend, Freda

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Enjoying Life with YOU is all I ask for...

Fresh!!!

Hi guys, welcome to my newly revamped blog. haha. Does it look nice? Well of cos! Thanks to Candy!! I have jolly well forgotten how to change blogskin already. The last time, I changed, it was like 1.5 yrs ago. And I hate to see html for sure. haha. It just makesme feel giddy man. haha. I called up Candy thru msn to ask her the procedures to change blogskin. And with her generous help. There I present you my nicely do up blog. It just means so much. Only I understand la. haha.

Went for last Sat Service, I felt refreshed. A new start and turning point in my life. Thanks to Pauline, for your encouragements. And of cos thanks to God, for His forgiveness. Now I am God motivated. Whenever things turned out badly, I will look to God for advices and comforts. haha. He is just so nice. haha. I am very happy. yeah .

Pastor bought me a booked called "Facing your Giants" by Max Lucardo. I know he knows what I am going through. Which is trying to run away from my responsibilites. Well, I always thought he is a stingy man. haha. ssssssssshhhhh. keep it to yourself. But He is actually not la. He will come to my aid if he knows I am in lack. The deal for buying that book for me is that I have to complete reading the whole book in a month's time. Well, you all know it requires discipline. And well, I took up the challenge. And he told Syl to take the book for payment.

I read 3 chapters yesterday, and indeed, I learnt something. David was a powerful man. There is actually so much to learn from this man. Wow. Will update you guys on the book after I finished reading. haha.

Well, Yesterday was a fruitful day. I slept till 11am. Had a very very good rest. ahah. Then ate breakfast and watched Tele until 2pm. haha. Took nap til 2.30pm, then changed my bedsheet, vaccum floor/mop floor, wash clothes, hang clothes. wah. I did all the housechores all by myself ok. So whoever who marries me, is really blessed ok. Thats the fact right folks. haha. stop laughing!!! haha. After all, I completed at 4.15pm. Took a bath and set out to visit my grandparents who stayed at Tampines.

It was a long journey. But you know what.???? I took bus 72, and on my way I was reading "Facing your Giants" book. After reading 1 chapter, I closed my eyes and rest, and who knoes, a lady who set beside my started talking to me regarding the book. She was a malaysian and she is 19 this year. She asked me she is interested in the book. I lend her the book and she say its quite different from other books. I said yes. Its inspirational. We chatted abt Chrisitainty and she is actually interested in our religion. Amen!!! Is she a lost soul that God had sent to me for her Salvation? However, I grabbed the opportunity and took her hp no. haha.

Then Upon reaching my grandma place, the first thing I do is to eat my grandma's cooking. I asked her to cook cabbage rice earlier on. haha. It was delicious, exactly the same taste as before. haha. After which, I asked my auntie to lease my her Sony Ericsson K618i. haha. You guys know my Samsung Hp is dead right. haha. And I got it. Its quite user friendly la. Well, after that, went out with my aunties and ah ma to TM, where we shop a while and went to lim kopi (drink Coffee) . haha. It was nice to interact with them after such a long halt. By the time I reached home, it was 10.45pm. Thats late. But I was still energetic. haha.

Well, enjoy reading. haha.

Freda

Friday, August 17, 2007

Enjoying Life with YOU is all I ask for...

I was beaten today...

So badly... Finally, Lord, everything was clear. So clear that I was smashed. God, nobody would believe me, only You. People streotyped me and I was put into the cold blooded room. I know I would never find the one, unless you provide one. Hurts were increasing on a daily basis. But God, healing comes slowly. As I ask You today, would You set me free from these sufferings? I plead of you. I don't wanna give up even though Satan voice is louder than ever. Can you give me the strength to carry on? I wanna change today, Lord would you believe me? I failed many times in the past that people loses trust in me. I cant control the fact that I'd failed, but would you give me another chance?

Will anyone still remember I am only 18 years old. Like any ordinary girl out there running after fashion and busy with assignments? Will anyone still look up to me as a leader of such young age? Does being mature something that I can change? Does looking above my age a sin?

Who would understand the trauma I went through. I do not have to broadcast, but all I asked from you is that you are true and accept me for who I am. My close friends are not people of my age but people much more senior than I. Am I wrong in that? Does that means that peers have to regard me as seniors? Where have all the girls gossip and girls late night chats went to? Does it stops there ever since I left my Secondary School? Who else can I trust besides the almighty God that I serve? Can I be as innocent as my peers for once? I felt lonely because I felt rejected by the world. The world seems to be a stranger to me that I find it hard to communicate. All my dreams and aspirations seems to leave me very far. Dear Lord, can you regain the confidence in me? Build a woman that strong in faith and unbreakeable. Only you will have the patience to listem to all that I have said and someone I can count on. Please forgive me of my past trangressions. I am sorry and will learn from mistakes. For once last time, I ask in your name, Purify me once again Lord.

In Jesus' Name

Amen.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Enjoying Life with YOU is all I ask for...

Life's Falling Apart...

Tears seems to be waterfalls

so much that it fills the 4-D room

Who would offer shoulders

to the one who hide and cry

Who would understands a person's thoughts

that are saddened by the beloved friend

Who would forgive a person's mistakes

that was done so unknowingly

Who would help a person up

if he falls and cannot stand

Who would give a person a chance

When he is sorry for what he does

Who would want to put themselves into a person's life

to go through the darkest valley of his life

Who would truly believe a person

that have promised to change

Who would be free to stand by someone

when he is falls down

Who would wait and see

the transformation of someone's life

Will you be the one?

Who can heal the broken hearted

only by the help of God's hand

God will be the one...

Yours only, Freda

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Enjoying Life with YOU is all I ask for...

Hi guys, long time no see. haha many things happened ever since the last time I blogged. Well to keep it short, I have become Y02 Cell Leader since July 07. Haha. Well, are you guys proud of me? This, I am not too sure.

But I have been through a tough time and now still. Its is not easily to took after sheep at my age. They are just simply my peers than sheep, I would say. Who will listen to me? Given to me, I wont listen to someone of my age. To me, it was like, who are you to instruct me wat to do? You are a nobody to me. And of cos, I am still struggling with my sermon. I just felt I lacked of knowledge but Pastor disagree. I lacked of expressions and illustrations in my sermon. Week after week, I am afraid my cell members are not given the best spiritual food. Am whether they have wasted their time coming for Cell Group. To add to my stress, I feel that my cell members lacked of trust in me. Seldom, people come to me to share their sorrows, when I am most willing to listen. I felt helpless, because I cant help much. Cell attendence have been low, each week, regular cell members become irregular and irregular cell members become regular ( which is great! ). Honestly speaking, I am discouraged. However, I would like to take this opportunity to tell my cell members, sorry for being imperfect. I tried to create an spirit filled atmosphere, however, sometimes I failed. I have struggles and breakthrough to face, I am still trying to overcome. Sorry if I cant delivered the type of messages you have in mind. I am still trying. And I seek your understanding that I need time to perfect my skills in cell leadership. Thanks.

Next, I have changed a new job too. Ever since I came back from Sydney. I am currently working in Sanyo Semiconductor (S) Pte Ltd. It have been a month already. Things are good. I am a fast learner so learning their software and work procedures are no problem. People here are very kind and friendly towards me as I am the youngest. And as you know, I am lovable. haha. They doted me and many of them are over 30++. They can be my parents man. haha. But one thing is that, I am careless. And because of my small mistake, it can cause big problem to my company and customer. And at the end, my colleagues have to clear up the mess for me. It happened not once but a few times. I felt guilty because they are really good to me. Though they say I am new, but I cannot accept that I overlooked. well, everyone learned from mistakes. I am thankful that I am here, though I am not sure how long I would stay, but I have definitely benefitted much from it. Thank You God.

Lastly, Just wanna apologise to a friend that I have hurt. Sorry for being inconsiderate and not understanding. Whatever have been done is done and whatever have been said is said. I know I cant change the fact, but may God heal your heart. But I realised my mistakes and will try to change from there. My life is in transition. Everything happens at the same time. I need to to adapt to it. People dun changed over time, me too. I seek your understanding. Sorry and Thanks.

Lastly, to all who are studying, May God gives you the determination and endurance in preparation for the papers. Have faith in God and yourself. You can do it!!! God bless. :)

STill moving in the realm of precious,
Freda