Finally Cleared...
Wow! Some misunderstandings were finally cleared. haha. There were some misunderstandings between me and my beloved sheep. haha. Well, we had a good fellowship today and finally, we talked our hearts out. haha. which means we were transparent to one another. Actually, to be honest, I love all my sheep. They are precious to me. If not for them,I won't be where I am today. haha.
However, a note to all my sheep. ( for your info, all Y02 members are my sheep ) As a cell leader and shepherd, I may not meet all your needs all at once. But rest assure that I am trying to meet as many as possible. If you see me spending more time than the other, I prayed for your understanding that you will not mistaken that I am outcasting you. It's just that I am spending time with my other sheep,and meeting their needs. I hope I can have 25 / 26 hours a day, so that I can meet more of you in a day, but God only gave me 24 hrs a day. Which means I am limited in the time given to me. But please trust me that deep in my heart, I am thinking of all of you guys everyday.
Throughout my Christian life all these years, my greatest achievement is to lead Y02. This is the responsibilty that God had given me. I wanna protect it and prosper it because this is God's business. haha. However, I would like to take this opportunity to apologise to those whom I have neglected. I dun mean it. seriously. I'm sorry, and I pray for your forgiveness. I will learn to be more sensitive from now on. :)
Next, talking about my personally life. haha. Things are quite settled. I have decided to let GO, and let God. Finally, I am able to put a pause in all the negative feelings. :) Well done, Freda!! It has been a trying time for me these 2 months. Done so much, but to no avail. In fact rejection is all that I got. I believe, I can say I am a strong woman now. I wont cry, and I will not. I do not know what God has plan ahead for me, but I am leaving it to HIM. Because only HE knows what best for me. If HE chooses STARS for me, I will take STARS. If HE chooses the MOON for me, I will take the MOON. I know God have made me valuable and precious. I will be valued and treasured!!
haha. I am excited of God's plan for me next year!!! Pastor shared some vision and directions from God with me regarding next year, and I am very motivated. I am able to something great for God!!! haha. All I ask for in life, is to serve HIM. I promise I wont hate any of the plans that HE had prepared for me. Instead, I will treasure the process of each stage. Only then, I will know, I will see the truth of the light of reality.
Abit chim, but nevermind, haha. I will share my life experience with you guys, one day...
Stronger,
Freda