Hi guys, long time no see. haha many things happened ever since the last time I blogged. Well to keep it short, I have become Y02 Cell Leader since July 07. Haha. Well, are you guys proud of me? This, I am not too sure.
But I have been through a tough time and now still. Its is not easily to took after sheep at my age. They are just simply my peers than sheep, I would say. Who will listen to me? Given to me, I wont listen to someone of my age. To me, it was like, who are you to instruct me wat to do? You are a nobody to me. And of cos, I am still struggling with my sermon. I just felt I lacked of knowledge but Pastor disagree. I lacked of expressions and illustrations in my sermon. Week after week, I am afraid my cell members are not given the best spiritual food. Am whether they have wasted their time coming for Cell Group. To add to my stress, I feel that my cell members lacked of trust in me. Seldom, people come to me to share their sorrows, when I am most willing to listen. I felt helpless, because I cant help much. Cell attendence have been low, each week, regular cell members become irregular and irregular cell members become regular ( which is great! ). Honestly speaking, I am discouraged. However, I would like to take this opportunity to tell my cell members, sorry for being imperfect. I tried to create an spirit filled atmosphere, however, sometimes I failed. I have struggles and breakthrough to face, I am still trying to overcome. Sorry if I cant delivered the type of messages you have in mind. I am still trying. And I seek your understanding that I need time to perfect my skills in cell leadership. Thanks.
Next, I have changed a new job too. Ever since I came back from Sydney. I am currently working in Sanyo Semiconductor (S) Pte Ltd. It have been a month already. Things are good. I am a fast learner so learning their software and work procedures are no problem. People here are very kind and friendly towards me as I am the youngest. And as you know, I am lovable. haha. They doted me and many of them are over 30++. They can be my parents man. haha. But one thing is that, I am careless. And because of my small mistake, it can cause big problem to my company and customer. And at the end, my colleagues have to clear up the mess for me. It happened not once but a few times. I felt guilty because they are really good to me. Though they say I am new, but I cannot accept that I overlooked. well, everyone learned from mistakes. I am thankful that I am here, though I am not sure how long I would stay, but I have definitely benefitted much from it. Thank You God.
Lastly, Just wanna apologise to a friend that I have hurt. Sorry for being inconsiderate and not understanding. Whatever have been done is done and whatever have been said is said. I know I cant change the fact, but may God heal your heart. But I realised my mistakes and will try to change from there. My life is in transition. Everything happens at the same time. I need to to adapt to it. People dun changed over time, me too. I seek your understanding. Sorry and Thanks.
Lastly, to all who are studying, May God gives you the determination and endurance in preparation for the papers. Have faith in God and yourself. You can do it!!! God bless. :)
STill moving in the realm of precious,
Freda
